I cry inside
I yell inside
These tears have been dripping
Since I was a young child,
But that was for scabbed knees,
And broken Barbie dolls
Now that’s not an issue
So why do I find myself
Crying a river at night
Screaming Inside at night…
Sobbing and sobbing
Until the morning sunlight
What is this sorrow?
It is because of death?
No…not entirely
There’s so much more
All of my memories that haunt me
All of the images that taunt me
All because of what I've gone through…
This isn't a lie I tell you
It's the only non one.
These Memories, I can’t speak of…
Can’t tell anyone
Can’t let it out
Why me??
Why has this grief been placed upon me?!
Why the sorrow?
Why this life?
I wish I was born into a different family
Every single night
This one just doesn’t seem right…
And what I’ve had to go through with them…
THEM.
I think about it all…
Dream of telling someone
Letting just one person know…
That im not just another a teen mood swing
This is actual pain, actual problems
I try to block them out…
But they creep up at night…
And I see the images,
Remember everything
My soul fills with angst
My heart with despair and hatred
As I think about everything
And quietly sob
Or internally scream
Will you help me?
Help me stop these tears from dripping…?
From these eyes that have seen it all.
