Dying Because I'm Worth It

I'm letting you crawl,
All over me,
Letting your words talk to me,
Letting your hurt enter me,

And I know you feel nothing at all,
I know that all the time,
Letting your feelings leave me empty,
Letting your thoughts drown me,

I'm letting you stand tall,
Giving in to you,
Crumbling in front of you,
And yet I know there is no feeling at all,

I open my heart,
Let you punish it,
Let you cut it,
And tear it apart,

I give you my soul,
Leaving me empty,
Lost and confused,
It's taking it's toll,

It's getting worse,
I'm starting to think,
That it just might be true,
And that I'm cursed,

Do I not deserve to be happy?,
All I'm feeling is pain,
My pride dying,
Under this stain,

I'm dying slowly,
Taking everything,
Being punished,
But for what?,

For lying?,
Maybe it was,
because I tried?,
Maybe because when unwilling,
I'm worth the killing.