I cry tonight,
I break down,
Knowing I've had enough,
Nobody sees it,
Not even the people who care,
They know it's not right,
But they try for me,
But I'm ready to drown,
I've had it too tough,
Enough of this fake flair,
I've lost everything this year,
Lost people to hold me tight,
Lost who I used to be,
Lost the smile to a frown,
Every tear,
Reminds me of these lost emotions,
The lost love,
The wasted friendships,
And all this fear,
And the loss of who I tried to hold near,
Never will I be free,
To all of you who have noticed,
But still don't understand,
All these anger trips,
Everything you hear,
Has all been real,
As I have lost what I gained,
And now that I'm alone,
I can release this stress,
Building up in me,
I try to feel,
All of me is numb,
Still falling,
To my knees,
The river of hurt flowing,
For truly I can see the end,
How did I get in this mess?,
Without a way to flee,
I opened the seal,
It's happening,
I always wondered what it was like,
All is not happiness and pretend,
There is no congress,
One last time,
I hit the floor,
And fumble for the light,
As I watch myself in the mirror,
Watching myself crumble.
