I have lost...

I lost
i have nothing left
noting at all
its all gone...

i have no feeling
i have no emotion
i have no life at all

i feel nothing
im lost inside
so now can i please just die

im gone
i dont exist
i am not living

people just walk right through me
what has happened
have i died

and you
you have moved on
know its u and her, not u and me

what
what in the world has happened
i think im dead
i have no feeling

why can not i move
why cant i breath
why cant i live

i think this is a sign
i think im going down
i think this is the end

i need some one to help me
i need some one to be there for me
i just need help

i love you i do
and i still do
i need to hear you say it back

i have problems
with the family
there is just to much going on

i cant concentrate
i cant think
i cant sleep
i cant eat

so is this what has happened to me
did u do this
or did i

i am sitting here
in a chair
shaking and wondering why

is it your fault
or is it mine

i have lost it i cant feel
i cant smell
am i dieing

let this be the end
to all the pain
let this be the last breath i take

we belonged together
i thought so
so what has happened

i lost...
i have lost everything
it all...

now im sitting here lifeless
just sitting here with no soul

i cant cry
i cant move
i cant do anything anymore

i have lost
i have lost the game of life

im going down
i cant stay afloat
this might be the end
i hope

i lost it all by just waking up
i lost it all by witing a poem
i have lost it all
because he read them

as he sits there crying
as he sits there shaking
he starts to say
dont die

so i go up to him and ask y
i love u he said
i love u to i whispered
jessica
i love u
weather or not u believe it..

andy you dont
nobody could ever love me
no one

then i guess i am a nobody
a no one

andy ur not that..
ur much more
andy ur the one i adore

i feel nothing
still as i stand
and i turn and say
then why have u told her u would die for her
u never told me that

it was silent
not a word

then he stood up
and then he turnerd
i do love u
he left her with that

now all alone
she turns back
she still doesnt believe
and she still wants to die

and then she whent home
and she started to cry
then she realized
she is alive..

the tear pouring down her face
now i see
now i can feel the tears comforting me

now i can feel
all the pain
now i can see all the blood

now i can kill myself
now i will....

i can feel the pain
i can hear my family yelling
i can see my boyfriend is cheating
now i can see

i dont want to see
what this cruel life has for me
i dont want to breath the air
thats there
i dont want to live
it makes me want to die

i will just start to write
this will be the end
cause all this time
i have spend
iv been writing
not just a poem
but a suicide letter
for my folks..

because cant u see
this world is a game
in witch i have lost..

it has all gone
i have lost, i have failed
now ill just end it with this

my life was bad
and i have had to much
i give it all up

i admit it
admit defeat
i have just lost
in a game i cant compete