She can't look back
she wont look back
she refuses to relive what her life was back than
getting through this pain
step by step she will be relieved
when finally she will start
to remove this mask she's living in
do you feel this pain
i need an answer quick
she cannot forgive
this pain that he gave
he put her through hell
and she's still climbing the stairs
hoping to make it one day
hoping to forget
being raped by a 'friend'
hurts more than love can ever know
to feel this betrayal and pain
ONE DAY THIS HAS TO END!!!
she wants to hurt herself
she wants to make the pain sink in
she thinks that it was her fault
"i didn't have to dob him in"
save her quick
she's drowning fast
her thoughts are still confusing her
her confusion is surely killing her
she never thought she could sink this low
all she ever believed in
is everything she threw away
she hated smoking
she couldn't stand it
because of him now she's addicted
drugs see she would never touch
but now it's all just "in good fun"
school is now just social
and classes she always misses
this life has just abandoned her
or maybe she abandoned it?
it's turned into a huge abyss
full of her hate and anger
her fury and depression
too embarrassed to show who she really is
will she ever remove this mask?
the one that hides her depression
her aching pain from within
wont stop until it wins
the only way to remove this pain
is maybe to remove her life
she hasn't got anything else
marks at school are low
almost as low as her self esteem
and her need to cut still grows
so she sits at home
writing this little poem
hoping that you might see
one day... this girl could be me
