Shattering Rain

The lights were off,
As the storm rolls on,
Huge gray clouds,
And tear drop eyes,

Thoughts of you,
My only love,
But now you see, your with God,
I’m stuck here in this living Hell,

I reminisce on zooming cars,
With you and me, just driving home,
The radio was on,
We were both laughing, singing along,

But it was raining then too,
These two storms alike,
Violent lightening,
And roaring cries,

The thoughts continue,
The details are haunting,
You see I was driving,
And it was after a party.

But you and I drank nothing,
We were just happily talking,
And it was hard to see past the shattering rain,
Vision lost of signs and road lines,

I should have pulled off,
Waited the storm out,
But you told me to keep going,
We were just so happy at the time,

Then things got scary,
And at was at the time so confusing,
You were laughing looking at me,
As I realized the car coming from your window,

I remember you looked at me puzzled,
Because I stopped laughing in a second,
Stricken by fear inside,
I could not face the reality, of the car just coming on your side,

The part thats stuck on repeat,
Is what I wish I could change.
Too scared to move an inch,
But I manage to hit the gas,

Maybe if I hit it sooner,
The car would not have hit your side so hard,
Maybe you would be all right,
Or maybe the driver would notice and veered right.

It all happened so fast,
But then again its also played so slow,
As the car collided in your side,
Your body flung to wards mine,

Your seat belt pulled you back,
Pulling you the opposite direction as the glasses path,
A sharpened pointed edge, in you head and neck,
Like darts thrown at a dart board, except you can’t just try again,

But thats just the beginning of this memory,
Then my would was turned upside down,
As things all over rolled around,
Your blood embellished the leather car,

Then the car come to a stop,
Gushing wounds and little cuts,
But al I do is focus on you,
As you dangle in the seat belt.

Now rain shatters out our front window,
And I can never forget that its all my fault,
As I can never forgive myself inside,
As rain shatters pain shatters in my heart,
As my shattering tears fall with the shattering rain upon the porch.

~please vote and comment, writen at the writing marathon of writing camp~