Grandad 2

I can't believe two years ago,
I lost you.
It doesn't feel like that long,
surely now i should be strong.
I still can't fight the tears,
when i realise your not near.
That pain is still there,
it wont seem to go away.
Everyone else seems to have moved on,
why can't I?
Surely by now it should be OK?
That one day is imprinted on my brain forever,
It was Prince William's birthday and the new Harry Potter book came out,
and at 20 to 9 that morning I lost the most important in my life - you!
I pretend I've moved on,
and that life's OK.
But when you died and went to heaven,
I think you took a piece of me with you because I haven't been the same since,
and I don't know if i ever will!
With your help i could overcome anything,
I don't think can do it on my own.
i treasure every memory I have,
but I wanted more.
Call me selfish, call me spoilt,
but i want you back.
Two years ago I lost a huge part of my life - you!
And at this time every year,
I want nothing more than to join you,
but i know you wouldn't want that.
You'd want me to enjoy my life,
and experience everything i could,
and to succeed and i will.
And everytime I succeed you'll be the first person i think of because I know you're up there cheering me on through it all.
The good, the bad and the sad,
and no matter what I do you'll always love me and wish me everything i want.
I just wish you could tell me that in person!!

Plz comment it would mean a lot 2 me xxx