Dear God...

Dear God are you up there?
are you watching over me?

Dear God
can you tell me
tell my this is only me?

can i not be someone else
can i not change who i am?

Dear God
you have to help
i am afraid of the mirror
or more so whats looking within

Dear God
did you do this?
did you make me look like this?

Dear God
CAN YOU HEAR ME
CAN ANSWER TO MY CRIES???

Dear God
I'm sick of wishing on the same shooting star
the one that flies past every single night

Dear God
if you created the world
why did you create me?

Dear God
can't you erase me
I'm sick of living in fear

God.....
he raped me and you stood back and watched
you were a witness but still you never approached the stand

God.....
he still beats me up
WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR???
PLEASE STOP THIS AWFUL PAIN

God is this what you like??
you watch everyone else with their pain and suffering

Dear God
do you laugh???
why can't you stop this hurt?

Dear God i still believe in you
yes i still have faith

but God you make it hard
when I'm living with such disgrace
th embarrassment of showing myself in public
the embarrassment of just being me

the fear of when i see that guy
that guy that took my innocence
by force he stole my soul
and demolished my self esteem

my nightmares...
God are you making them real?

(C) Lucy Green

~* Hey everyone thanks for reading my poem, and no offense to anyone with this, i still believe in god, it was all just emotion that i needed to release, please vote and comment, critique is welcome*~