I can say that I want to die,
Because that's what everyone wants to hear,
What I really want to do,
Is just fade away and disappear.
Some people believe in God and others say he's false,
I can't say I am on either side,
Because I am confused.
I would rather crawl away and hide.
My only compassion lies within a steel blade,
And no one else can see,
That behind all this pain there is someone else.
A person I can be glad to say is me.
I tried to tear off all the flesh,
To find the person buried deep within,
But no matter how much blood I spilt,
I couldn't find that person who yearns to win.
With this known I still can't stop,
Those voices tell me go.
They tell me to hurry up,
And I can't turn and just say no.
But it all comes clear in an instant,
This never had to be.
God gave me the power to suicide,
Because he knew it would save me.
