Sometimes
i wish that we could go back
and change the past
so that it could possible change the future
i know that many times you've screwed up
but i have to admit i did too
i always make u feel bad because i want u to feel the pain i had to go through
i sometimes wondered if killing myself would make u feel the pain that i had to go through
but that wouldn't solve anything now
would it?
we both know you wanted to try new things
but why did you, the most important person in my life have to
"experiment" which one of the other most important friend that I've ever had
i know you two liked each other
but you both said that i was the most important person in both of your lives
so i automatically thought that you would think of me and might know how i felt
i always kept wondering that if you really loved me you would have told me first
or never done that in the first place
but how would you two even know
i never told you how i would feel if you were ever to do that
now every time i see you two fighting to sit together
my mind will always go back to what you told me
and also why that couldn't be me
its like i wanted to be a part of you two but i didn't
because that's totally not me
now i know that things will never be the same
all our plans will never come thorough because everything is so different
that business we wanted to own together might never be
that cruise we wanted to go might not involve you
you said cant we just move on
but u just don't understand this
i can move on but i can't forget
i cant forget the dirty details
i can't forget you two always wanting to sit by each other
i cant forget how i used to be the center of your world
i can never forget the good times
and definitely not the bad ones either
you seem to think that our friendship is strong enough to handle this
but nothing has ever caused such a big breach between us
so hopefully time will tell how this story will end
i hope it ends well for the both of us.
