Just another suicide

**Just to make it clear, Im not committing suicide. But these are the poems I can write about and relate too. Thanks**

Sitting in a dark room
I mumble a quiet hum
“Dear god take me please,
I want it to be done”

Pain consumes my body
My every waking thought
All the lies that I have told you
That you have quickly bought

I go to sit in a dark room
And after I’ve closed the door
I’m holding a sliver razor
Sitting on the shinny floor

I think of what awaits me
In the future and in the past
I think of all the things I’ve done
And the tears rolling down real fast

“God I just can’t do it,
Not even one more day
I can’t think of anything but dying
In a painless kind of way

Slitting my wrists very deeply
Cutting all the veins
Releasing all the demons
That have kept me in this pain

So here’s just another suicide
To add upon your list
God I have done all I’ve needed
Except to tastes deaths bitter kiss\"

So I cut my wrists like I planned
And took everything in
I didn’t care about what I was doing
Or that I was committing a sin

I began to feel dizzy
And felt a bit of some relief
I hoped heaven was before me
Because then there’d be no grief

I hoped that it was heaven
When I saw a shinning light
Amongst a dark surround
In the midst of the darkest night

But then I saw my mother
And all of my dearest friends
I saw my sister and my brother
I thought it was the end?

“Why did you do it Jordan
You know we all love you!
I thought all the pain you felt
You had already gotten through

Why didn’t you talk to me
You know I always care
And every time that you have fallen
Who’s always been there!?”

My friends all search for answers
And here’s what I had to say
“I’m sorry I wanted to kill myself
But I couldn’t find another way

I wanted all the pain to cease
And I didn’t know what to do”
I looked to all my friends
“What if I would have told you?

What would you have said
When I told you of this pain
What do you have to say now
Just sadness to make me more insane

I needed it all to end
And I didn’t know who to tell
That each time I took a breath
It was a living hell.

So I’m sorry to dissapoint you
It was just another suicide
I didn’t think that anyone would have cared
If they found out that I died,”

My friends all shook with sadness
And cried many many tears
They hugged me till I was numb
And tried to shake away my fears

But when they left I laid there
Upon the shaggy bed
Thinking of the many things
That were still left unsaid

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