How you make me feel (couldnt think of a name sorry)

I go from being on the top of the world, then sad and teary to the next.
I sit and asphyxiate on whats wrong, panting to catch my breath.

Thoughts sway back and forth as i try to focus on what happening in side,
There goes my dignity and my self respect, I’ll say goodbye to my pride.

Another suicidal thought, to the action taken,
Another disgusting scar I'm just a child that gods forsaken

Mistify and Purify, my cold Blatant heart,
Turn me into something im not while ripping me apart.

Tell me that you love me, lie to my face,
Then you’ll see the blood pour from my wrist, and let it go to waste..

I used to be so Happy, now im in this awful mess,
Every time i gain much more, somehow you make it turn to less..