Suicide note

I write this note to say good bye
To get away from all the tears i cried
before i go
i want you to know
10 years ago
i thought was the end when i was raped by my brothers best friend
he abused my body and destroyed my trust
he messed up my life with just 1 thrust
to go through that pain and then forget
then have it remembered by 1 prick
ruined my life
it caused more drama
i thought i could make it go away maybe if i moved in with mama
but theres a a problem though
i cant leave my Friends
especially Alex who i know will be there till the end
so i stay with my dad
and deal with the drama
him drinking and fighting with Sonja
hes says its a holiday weekend
and he deserves a break
he promises he can control it
but hes promises are always fake
So i want you to know the reason 4 this is
not me
its you
i know i got a few screws up in ma head loose
but its you who drove me to it I\'m sorry to say but its true
but i do want you to know that i really do love you
so here it goes.......................

I slit my wrist
i make it deep
i watch my blood run
from my wrist straight down to my feet
so dig my grave
and put me in
but remember I\'m happier where i am