Here's a poem
to tell you something about me.
I sit in my bed
crying until about 3.
I don't know what to do.
My hand's start to shake.
I don't know how much more
I can take.
You can't turn back
The hands of fate.
I don't know how much
I can actually tolerate.
I chew my nails down
until they're at the quick.
I'm crying so much
My stomach feels sick.
everything looks so perfect.
when people are far away.
they don't understand.
how much I go through each day
I don't know what to think anymore.
My mind is in a daze.
I don't know if this is real life.
or just a stupid phase.
everyone thinks I’m happy.
They look at me and they smile.
I wring my hands.
in my mouth, I can taste the bile.
I curl up in a ball before I sleep.
up in my mind.
those nightmares do creep.
what happens when the happiness dies out?
what happens when I don’t know what to do?
will you be there for me?
will I be able to turn to you?
will you hold me tight.
will you watch me while I sleep
will you give me a single kiss goodnight?
I can't imagine my future with out you.
I think about it.
and I just don’t know what to do.
I remember the smiles..
I remember the laughs.
and now I just think of the aftermaths.
I look in your eyes, I turn deep red.
for that moment I’m happy.
but later I feel almost mislead
your eyes are deceiving
this I know.
when I hold on to you
I just don’t want to let go.
I know you hate it when I cry
I know I'd hate it to.
but what else am I supposed to do
when people tell me I should break up with you?
they don't understand
they don't hear my heart calling.
they never will understand
how deep in love I've fallen.
