Why me?

I always was happy, I always loved my life I never thought this would happen to me. I never thought I would cry every night and brand every day, This world brings me down. i never am treated like the way I want to be treated, I always get called sick painful names. Names that make me cry every night. I wish I was never born, I cry cause of the things people said about me. I wish i was gone, soon ill have no more tears to cry. Cause tonight is the night I die the night I've been waiting for. Hey, nobody would care I'm gone I'm so depressed yet I don't show it. I hate telling people my problems, Problems they don't understand. I hate crying. I can never stop till i feel loved, nobody understands me. They never think about what they say about and what it would do to me. I don't even no what to say all I do is giggle and say f-you. Hey what am I suppose to do? I if try to stick up for my self it would get worse. I never thought it would be like this. I was always nice to the people who hated me, I was always nice to the people who are my "friends" I have no friends, The only friend I have is my lighter and my needle. Those are my only friends. I hurt myself so i feel better. I tell people I stopped doing that. I would pretend I'm "o.k".. People don't know how bad they hurt me. They say their joking. Even if they joke I still feel depressed I hate it so much I wanna die. I hate everybody, I hate myself for the things I did. Maybe I am w. h o r e, Hey want you just say I'm a stupid w. h o r e.. Since you say that to me all the time.. Or call me a b-tch.. then the next day act all nice to me.. My whole life is going down the drain. When I ask for some help. They don't listen, But when they need help I listen What is happening to me I want it to stop, I want people to realize I'm a human i have feelings They don't see my scares I have form branding. They don't see I cry every night cause of them. hey don't care. I have nobody, Nobody lends a shoulder to cry on, Yet I do, Oh, I feel the pain, The needle is burning threw me. I think to just brand myself so deep I'll bleed to death, People think this is just a poem. I'm telling the whole world how I feel right now, Maybe this would be the last words the world hears me say. I never had a happy life and never will. So just let me die and don't lend a hand, Cause you know what., Nobody never helped me threw my life I was on my own no matter how bad it got nobody cared. I dont want attion all I wanted was some one to care about me.