I Promise

I'm glad that you're happy
I'm glad that you've found comfort
and I'm glad that you're feeling better

but I'm sad that it took so much from me
I'm sad that i couldn't comfort you
and I'm sad that i couldn't help you feel better.

i wanted to be your everything
because thats what you are to me.

i wanted to help you heal
because thats what you do for me

I'd hoped you'd save me something,
though that was foolish.
with you, its inevitable.
i should have seen it coming
it was staring me in the face

but i was so blind
so caught up
in everything
in all my stupid girly crushes
in all the stupid drama

and it crept about
and got ahold of you
and i have never been more miserably surprised.

but i was unprepared
and i payed for it

and I'm sorry
it wont happen again
i promise.