I want...

I want to be with you
but it may be too late
i want to be happy
but it isn't meant to be
i want to get away
but i am trapped here
i want to rid myself of the pain
but it is here to stay
i want to make you smile and laugh
but you wont have it
i want to feel safe
but i can not escape
i want to make them pay
but i will never have the strength
i want to stop my misery
but i don't know how
i want to feel your sweet touch
but you don't know i love you
i want to break free of this routine
but it will forever go on
i want to stop the bleeding
but my heart will not heal
i want to start all over
but its not that easy
i want to end my life
no buts that is something i can do