Out of Reach

So many questions fill my head,
As I try to go off to my bed.
Thoughts of you keep drifting past,
But I think to myself, this wont last.
All logic pulls me away,
But all else says why don't you stay.
Part of me says your young let it go.
Still can't he at least know.
I can't comprehend this desire,
This thing that has set my heart on fire.
What I want is so unclear,
And this newly found mystery has filled me with fear.
Why can't I let this matter rest?
Would I rather put myself to the test?