No One Will Ever Know

Holding tightly, to the ledge,
Now regretting what I've done,
I was hoping i could find a way,
But from fears, I cannot run.

My fingers slipping,
My heart begins to pound,
Terrified by what may come,
I look down at the ground.

No one there to save me,
No one there to help,
Just the fear of death, and silence,
And the wish to end myself.

Now i don't believe,
That it was such a good idea,
I should've stayed in misery,
I should've never came here.

I should've ignored the voices,
I should've ignored the pain,
Now I'm stuck on this ledge all by myself,
And I'm the only one to blame.

I think back on the times,
When everything was great,
No pain, no tears, no suffering,
No regrets, and no mistakes.

I wish i could go back to that,
I pray to God that time would stop,
I wish that for once, the force of gravity,
Would weaken and let me on top.

I imagine myself, Hitting the pavement,
With a quick pain, I'd be gone,
Then suddenly see, how hard could it be?
I've been in pain here all along.

I've been through loss and heartbreak,
I've been made fun of and so much more,
I've cried and cried, I've nearly died,
Is this any worse than what I've been through before?

I think to myself "you shouldn't give up,
What you've started, you must now end"
With a tear in my eye, and a smile on my face,
I say "I love you" to all of my friends.

Then i snap back to reality,
And realize it's only me,
And they'll never know i said it,
For no longer will i be.

My hands begin to ache,
Tears stream down my cheek,
I know now that i must let go,
I'm beginning to feel so weak.

I stare down at where they'll find me,
I know no one will care,
I kiss the wall, to remind them all,
Of how i was once there.

I see the bright red lipstick stain,
And with i smile, i finally let go,
I fall to the ground, with a single word from my lips,
That no one will ever know...

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