No more!

Every time you call
my dad looks at the caller ID and then smiles at me
every time we talk
my dad is on the other line listening.

No one seems to understand
how hard it is living without any privacy
its the reason I stopped talking on the phone
and the reason I'm still single and alone.

The reason I don't have a boyfriend
is because I'm scared of what he may say
I hate when they ask me to the movies
and I'm forced to say, "maybe some other day"!

They never seem to understand
why I always have to tell them no
I try to explain the reason why
and it hurts cuz I really want to go.

I get so down on myself
sometimes I end up being so depressed
everyday I write in my stupid journal
the reasons for me feeling stressed...

I'm almost 18
and everyday I'm still at home
for once I wish I was free
to live my life on my very own.

I know I say this enough
but I tell you it's all true
my life is like a prison in hell
and there's nothing else to do.

I sit here everyday
and cry out my sorry tears
I'm feeling sad once again
the same feeling that I had for years...

Never have I been happy
the way I want to feel
but no one seems to understand
that my pain is all for real.

No more lieing about the shame
no more hiding behind a wall
I ask for the help of happiness
and I say, "NO MORE to it all".

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thank-you...jen