Victim to my own mind

In my heart,
A Revelation to my mind,
It seems this place,
I can not find,

Crazy? Insane?
I'm riping and pulling at my skin,
Dragging blades across my wrist,
I am my own worst sin,

Pushing back at these feelings,
This fight Ive never won,
Pick up my knife again,
Ten minutes till I realize what Ive done,

Tears of crimson,
Falling down my face,
Running from my past,
To slow to keep the pace,

Falling back into these memories,
This feeling will not pass,
Memories etched in my skin,
Emotions cut like broken glass,

Each day I become more numb,
Growing closer to my demise,
My heart is getting colder,
And you see it in my eyes,

This whole time I was,
Falling victim to my own mind,
But know I realize,
Its your heart I cant find.

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