The Path In My Head

You push me aside
like I'm not there
you look at me
like you don't even care

my arms are wide open
waiting for you
but you're under the covers
you don't have a clue

I watch you mess up
and it pains me to see
I know that you\'re hurt
but you're hurting me

As I lie here
in a puddle of blood
all i can see
is your face in the mud

I'm drowning in your shadow
as the rain falls on me
all i can think of
is what we could be

what i was thinking
wouldn't come true
we were on a path
just me and you

but then the path ended
and i see what is real
that the path isn't there
it's just something i feel

it's how i hold on
when you are not here
without it
i drown in my fear

the fear of losing you
stays in my head
for if i lose you
i might just be dead

you're more here for me
than i am for you
I think you love me
but I'm not sure you do

*this is mandy's first poem with help from me