An Unrevealed Scar and a Suicidal Friend

I'm avoiding reality.
Ignoring the truth of things.
Dazing off in la la land,
you can't see me, no one can.
Insanity's becoming true.
All because of I love you.
My voice is lost but that's not true.
My lips can't form the I love you.
The end is near, I just know.
But my love for you I just can't show.
If I say it, if I do, things won't be the same with you.
You speak to me.
I speak to you.
Deep inside I cry to you.
I do cry but you don't see.
You're not in the room with me.
The tears of salt runing down my face,
leave stinging marks across my face.
Love is a four letter lie?
I say love is four letters for pain.
All this shit makes me insane.
All because a simple question.
Only friendship was revealed.
I fear my heart just wont be healed.
That day I asked, it left a scar.
Two hours in the dark I sat
that day.
A friend was there,
she helped me then.
I had fun that night, right then.
The one thing is,
I truly helped her.
She said she'd be dead.
She said I saved her.
All I did was be a friend,
but friendship saved
her in the end.