The truth

When i look in the mirror
the girl you see ever day
begins to fade away
i see the real me
the me filled with pain and anguish
i see all the years
i have put on a fake smile
all the times i said i was okay
when deep down inside
i was about to break down
i see the me
that always helped others
but never helped herself
the me that always turned down help
because i was scared
i was scared of the truth
and now I'm sitting here
in a puddle of tears
a knife to my right
and a suicide note to my left
i look in the mirror
and i see my life after death
i am happy there
truly happy
oh how i long for that feeling
then it all fades away
and i see the truth
i will never be happy its all a dream
i am destined to be
the girl in the mirror