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Kristi I love you so much girl
and you mean so much to me
I don’t know what I’d do without you in my world
and I’m turning into the girl you used to be.

I now rely on the knife, even though I’m stopping
I want to be closer, like we used to be
Sometimes I just feel like my body’s stopping, and just dropping
Dropping to the floor, but maybe one day you’ll see.

I’m turning into the girl you used to be
Making scars on my arms and hiding them all the time
I’m sure you didn’t want your old self turning into me
When people look at me they think I’m just fine.

And thanks for the poems, I loved them a lot
And I hope we can be close again, like we were before
And we’re still best friends, but it’s just the thought
And I’m not gonna kill myself, I’m not gonna throw my whole life out the door.

I have a star on my ancle, it looks really cool
But people ask me
And when I don’t answer I look like a fool
And I tell them my sister, jabbed me with a cookie cutter, but they don’t believe me.

not my best