Changed

I know you think patience and time will make things fine. But waiting is draining me. I know you want to see who i am trying to be. But life is full of days that just cry misery. I know you don't understand why i want to be friends with you still. But it's like I'm addicted to a drug and your that pill. I made mistakes i lied i cried. But in the end i still tried. I'm not perfect and I'm not ever going to come close. But the old me is dead just another distant ghost. You jump to conclusions and fall into a dead waisted allusion. I'm not pretending when i said this ending is sad. Because for 13 years pain has made me so mad. Samila i said to you time and time again. That it's OK if you want us to end. But if you do then why when i email you, you reply. Maybe I'm not the only drifted life. But I've changed. I know we aren't friends but are trying to see. If there's something we can be. But i can't stand when you yell. I just want to scream go to hell. So whats it going to be. Because I'm tired of you changing me.