I Promised

I cant take the pain any more
I'm sick of it all
i don't want to be called worthless
and called a ho

i have the knife to my throat
i am saying sorry
and telling everyone i love them
i am spilling my secrets
even though no one can hear

and then i get to you
and it makes me think twice
i promised you i wouldn't any more
i picture your face
and remember you saying i love you

i put the knife down
and i begin to cry
I'm sorry i even let it cross my mind
i feel so guilty
for thinking about betraying your trust

but its ok now
cause i am still here
i put the knife away
for another day