Have u ever had one of those times where everything became so unclear? yesterday was so perfect and now well..
you were a major part for my reasons. you come back to me saying you still care.
wanting to be friends, when we both know that friends we will never be.
if we come as close to a hug we know we will break down and kiss.
something that i am longing for but also fearing at the same time.
u hurt me so very many times before, and if i fall, then i will never get up again.
for it is you that i do all my faults now, because you emotionally abused.
you are one reason why things came crashing down. my other..
i moved on doing what i pleased.
not caring or getting too close.
i put my self out there and in the same position.
now i regret, but not at the same time. because i moved on happy leaving the memories with you behind.
and yesterday, i was supposed to get something. and now i fear that what happened between me n u, will come again but between me and my new guy.
i am freaking out each and every way. wondering if i can try something new with you, when i may have something on the way.
would u ever forgive me for the things i have done, and help me through this rough times that seem to be ahead. but at the same time, leave me be for i fear that i will ruin your life, and his.
all i want at the end of the day is to know that you are there?
