I'll let you in for a minute,
But then I'll rebuild my wall,
It gets harder to push you away,
Then the time before.
I'll tell you my deepest secrets,
I'll open my heart to you,
But then I have to close up again,
And not let you pass through.
When I start to feel close to you
So many feelings from the past,
Start to resurface themselves,
They come so fast.
Its not because of you I pull away.
Its not that I don't like you,
It's the feelings from my past,
That makes me act in the way I do.
When I said that your “dissing†me off,
I wish I could take back what I said to you
Please believe me when I say
That most of how I felt wasn't aimed at you.
When I saw those tears fill your eyes,
I felt something I don't allow myself to feel,
I was standing there hurting inside,
Hoping my tears wouldn't be revealed.
In my life I don't allow attachments
No emotional bond with anyone
But as I stood with this hurt in my heart,
I realized I've let me worse fear come undone.
