Blue Flame

Months and months of anger
Years and years of hate
Who knew what was to come
Beyond Heaven's gate?

I'm sorry I didn't tell you
I'm sorry I'm not the one
It was just a little childish game
We were only having fun

I can't seem to notice
If even you care or not
I seem to lose every battle
Me and my mind have fought

Questions flowing through my life
Answers yet unfound
Needing help? Call my name
I'll always be around.

Yet after a while you grew mad
Seeing nothing more
Yet moments later here I am
Lying on the floor

Blood surrounding my body
A pistol in my hand
A small quote on my dresser
"Life's like a rubber band"

Rubber bands backfire
When you expect them to hit
And when you try to be sneaky
You get smacked with your own trick.

Your anger with me caused my hate
Wanting life to end
Seeing nothing could be more
Than just being a friend

I love you with all my heart
And wish I was still around
Yet what I've done can't be fixed
Just think of it as a Merry-Go-Round

You'll see me one day in Heaven
And in the after-life
We can love each other there
No more fears, hate, or strife

You seem to care a lot for me
While I do the same.
Yet nothing can compare to this
It's blue surrounding a flame