To all my friends i love you all and i thank you for the support you gave me but in the end it was not enough. i am sorry for this but i know you will move on, in someone else you find a better friend then i ever was. we always had great times chasing boys and having a laugh but i can not carry on pretending i am happy. you were always there giving me advice support and comfort and i tried to repay the favor helping you out telling you what to do and what to say but i was never the best a friend could be. i caused more problems and heartache then a friend should ever do and i hope you will forgive me for that. i know you will all go onto better things in life and everything will be fine but i just could not see a future in mine. i wanted to talk to you and try to get help but every time i went to i could not bring myself to do it. i thought you would always think me stupid and attention seeking so in myself i hide. so thank you again for everything you have shown my the part you played in my suicide I am not sure. maybe you helped me see that i am not the person i want to be and it is too late to change or maybe being betrayed made me lose hope too.
to the boy that never knew i loved him, well you do know. i was always too scared to tell you how i felt out of fear of rejection. i wish i had spoken up sooner and told you how i felt but now i will never know. you never knew how much what you did meant to me and i hope you know now how special you were to me. without knowing you made me see the better side of me but crushed me at the same time for not being able to have you. the part you played in my suicide none, you made me think there was a brighter side to life, if only you knew...
to my school well i will doubt you will even notice or care. you never picked up on he signs or ever helped me out, you made me feel so stupid and inadequate. you never helped me when all i did was fail but ignored me because i was not important. i was not clever so i was not your main priority, but every test i failed and kept on failing it was never just a one off but you never saw that was my sign that i wanted help! the part in my suicide you played was you made me feel like such a failure and unimportant because you never noticed the four years i was at your school i was depressed and needed some help!
life was just too hard, I am sorry for ending it like this but there was more to the situation then meets the eye. now you know all the different parts that played a part in my suicide
