Jennifer, I know how you feel. It feels like you are trying to let out the real you in front of people, but then you just end up being pushed away, or being ignored. It hurts. I know it does. I've felt it. I've been so lonely that I just wanted to die, and see how those people really felt about me now that I was dead. But then you think about it, and thats not the way to do it. That's taking the easy way out. That's showing you are weak. That is showing that you have given up. So DONT give up! If I can do it, you can do it! I am willing to help you to the best of my ability to help you fight through this. If you EVER need to talk, vent, or anything... My email is Theguitarteen2000@yahoo.com or if you have AIM my screename is Theguitarteen... Stay strong. And remember there is ALWAYS someone who cares for you so much, that they would die for you... Just keep that in mind... 5/5