No one has all the answers..

I don't know how
day after day
i live in this dream
in which i am so afraid
All i do is cut
trying so hard to wake up
i bleed more and more
but will it be enough?
I look for something
maybe near or far away
i want to wake up
and see the light of day
I can't breathe
while stuck in this nightmare
how long before it gets worse?
my pain is all but rare
slowly but surely
the blade goes deeper
i can't pull away
my pain grows steeper
How much time
do i have left in life?
how much longer
must i turn to the knife?
With every cut
I am falling faster
red splashes down
What will come after?
I grow weaker
as i cry the last of my tears
the knife cuts away
the last of my fears
I close my eyes
my first smile on my face
and along my arm
one last time i trace
I fade away
as my friend falls to the floor
blackness takes over
pain will rule me no more