Don't you ever wonder how your life would of been if you where perfect?
I mean we all make mistakes, right?..You know I made mistakes in my life that I regret doing. The people who put me threw hell are still here. Don't you every wonder if you communed suicide if anybody would notice? I almost did and wish I did. There's no point for me living. I have nothing to live for. I'm always put down. I never have a great life, My life was filled with yelling and beating and all that drama s h i t, I tried to escape from it all I drank to look cool I smoked so others would accept me I would do stuff for others that you wouldn't want to know. I will never be the girl that will have a happy life. The past haunts me everyday. II try and have a smile on my face, but I just can't my life is so screwed up that I wish I was never born. There's people who you don't know how bad they treated me and still treats me the way you don't wanna be treated. I tell them how I feel when they call me theses things that would put you down. They say that everybody is saying that about me. I try not to believe yet my mind has all these lies. I don't know what's true anymore. Everybody lies to me. Ha, my life is sh itty. I wish I can end my life now. But there's some people in my life saying it's not worth it. It's not worth it for my f u ckin living. there's no point I don't have a life no more, I don't have a soul I don't have a heart I don't have the life I always wanted. Now I sit here crying, Now it's time to lay myself to sleep, As I lay my tears start to come more I don't want to be hurt no more so here I go ending my life.
