Too much

We were friends.
good ones at that.
then tessa started to like you you.
so i thought about it as i sat.

the next day she asked you out.
and you asked if I would care.
i told you i woudn't.
so you said i will i swear.

then it got awkward.
between me and you.
you guys were holding hands.
and there was nothing i could do.

so i tried to forget about it.
and it seemed to help me.
but then that one day.
we kissed and i thought it couldn't be.

we tried to ignore it.
and i didn't really care.
but then after awhile.
i knew it wasn't fare.

so finally i broke down.
i told you i couldn't do this anymore.
i had to tell her.
i didn't wanna be a w h o r e.

so i told her.
and she dumped you that day.
but why you didnt care.
was something you didn't say.

then after awhile i asked.
why you weren't mad at me.
you said it was cuz you liked me more.
and with me you wanted to be.

it took about a week.
then you asked me out.
and i knew you liked me.
i knew it no doubt.

so i decided.
to just go along and say yes.
but now all this is.
is a huge mess.

i don't know if i like you.
and i don't wanna lie.
but i got knots in my stomach.
and i don't know why.