Why??

Why do you yell at me day and night,
Why are you always wanting to fight,

You say I need to spend time with you and mom,
But how can I?

When what ever I say blows up like a bomb,

You say I am always working and yes that is true.
But its just to get away from you!

Your always drinking,
Which does not really help,
Then it gets me thinking,
Y am I lieing to myself?

Why do apologize when you do not know what your sorry for,
Do you remember slaming the slide glass door?

Do you remember screaming at me,
Is it just that you cant see?

Do you expect me to forgive you even though im hurt,
While you leave me laying in the pile of dirt?

My only question is why?
Why do even bother??
Why do you even care??
It is not as though you are there!!!