So I need you,
I need you more than ever,
I need you to need me too,
Because without this I can never,
Be anything,
I need that helping hand to lift me,
I need that smile to make me laugh,
I need that safety to be,
I know now what I fear,
I know now what I need,
I know how to let my mind be free,
But I can't get into fifth gear,
Can't even follow my lead,
I've been through this before,
Put myself in the open,
And been rocked to the core,
Shot down,
Ripped apart,
Do I forget it?,
The times they made me drown,
Or do I follow my heart?,
Because it leads me to pain,
I guess it wasn't my time,
But when do I lift this frown?,
And forget the rain,
To my first,
You held me true,
Shut me out when I was innocent,
For something I didn't do,
In the end it was you,
To my second,
I waited,
And I knew what it was,
It came belated,
Told myself,
I wouldn't do it again,
But then when that was through,
Came my third,
Yet again I waited,
Yet again fell short,
What did I have to do?,
In the end I chose to forget,
And I forgave you,
But I made another promise,
Never to do this,
To myself until it's real,
And I can see the deck I'm cut,
But when you ask what's wrong,
Do I say it was everything?,
Or do I say it was just you?,
When you ask if I'm alright,
Do I tell you a lie,
To keep out of sight,
This hidden me,
A side I want to show,
But will never get over it,
Because I am never guilty,
But I'm forced away,
For some other girl,
To unsuccessfully light my day.
