Living A Lie

I live this lie,
Knowing I'm being fed,
Something unreal,
Right until the day I die,
There's something I never read,
Something I can't feel,
Something hidden inside,
The pain I keep,
To leave me scarred,
To never heal,
So I remember,
All the times they lied,
From nowhere will I leap,
I'm no superman,
But this life is hard,
And I'm trying to keep it real,
But where does it lead?,
When at night I weep,
I know I ran,
But I played the wrong card,
And no longer can I conceal,
All that's inside,
I've been left to bleed,
Watched the blood run from my cuts,
But I became numb,
And couldn't feel,
So I stopped the deed,
But all this pressure puts,
More toll on my heart,
And rips at my soul,
No longer freed,
I'm tight,
On a leash,
Against my might,
I fall,
Another bad roll,
I guess I'm going down,
Heading in these flames,
I guess the time is now,
Is to destroy myself,
Become one of the destroyed,
From a position high,
That was once enjoyed,
I am left here to nurse,
A souvenir void.