The Ultimate Breath

I miss you more and more
each and everyday
you're in everything i do
and in everything i say
you're in my mind, all the time
for all the time you're gone
i can't believe i still miss you
because you've already moved on
i can't seem to concentrate
on anything else but you
my heart breaks
i wanna scream
i love you still, it's true
but i want you to be happy
not all caught up with me
and if you really want me to
I'll go and leave you be
but i just really wanna know
why you left without a clue
what was really happening?
what did you want me to do?
yet now you're gone
and days have passed
since I've seen you're smile
i tried to talk
and you just said,
"will this take awhile?
because you know,
she's over there,
waiting specially for me..."
and i cut you off
with the tears
i didn't want you to see
is this, my love
what you want?
for me to tear, till i die?
be careful what you wish for
because YOUR wish came true
I'm crying with a gun in hand
you've made my world so blue
three more sobs, unit i take
the last and ultimate breath
to my head i put the gun
that will lead me to my death
i hope you know, i love you all
with my heart and more
but now its time
to leave this world
'cause he's hurt me to the core
three sobs are over
i take a breath
time to leave this cold
i close my eyes
a tear drops down
my life i no longer hold.