I dont know

Sometimes I sit in my room,
Thinking about my fears,
Listening to my music,
And wondering about these past 13 years,
Depression had once taken over my life,
I tried ending my life right then,
But I know at least one person who cares,
I think I'm in love,
I know it sounds stupid,
But every time I talk to him I end up with a huge smile on my face,
I ask myself why I am smiling,
Yet I don't have an answer,
Maybe because I know he loves me,
Maybe its because I know he cares,
I'm not quite sure I'm somewhat confused,
I really hope,
I'm not being used,
I know we look good together,
Well at least my friends say so,
We both hate preps,
So there's one thing we have in common,
He's hot and he thinks I'm hot,
Well anyways this is how I feel,
Most of my days,
I ask the same questions,
I go through the same phase...