Fake Smiles

I dont want to hurt; I dont want any pain.
Meanwhile I bring it upon myself; its driving me insane.

I seem to enjoy the tears rolling down my face.
I seem to enjoy putting myself in an uncomfortable place.

I like lying in my bed wondering why me,
And Im too stubborn to pray on one knee.

I like self-consciousness, destruction and pity;
a smile comes to my face when I think, my life is shitty.

Im a sad little girl deep down;
Im a princess without a crown.

The crown is what Ill never own,
If I ever do get it, it'll be on a loan.

I like pain,
Its driving me insane

I like feeling sad,
is that bad?

I like crying for a very long time,
would you consider that, a crime?

I like to let my true feelings show,
the feelings I have that nobody can know.

I like taking my mask off at night,
after then, is when I feel all right.

I like wiping off the smile,
and putting on a frown

what makes me feel good,
is feeling down.

Im the girl with no problems
everythings fine.

Everythings fine on the outside
because its all in my mind.