I want to cry
i want to puke
i want to die
but not for you
it's hard when you open your eyes
it's hard when you realize
that she never really loved you
that all was a lie
it's easy to say you hate her
but hard is to feel it
it's easy to say you don't care
but you keep thinking of her
i say i don't care
but haven't eaten in 33 hours
i say i don't care
but 2 days ago was my last shower
i gave her my whole life
but she never cared
she just played with my feelings
she just gave me back pain
i am shaking
and tears want to come outside
i can see my shirt moving
CZ of the beats of my heart
it's hard to breathe
it's hard to say one word
it's hard to grab this pen
when I'm sweating so much
over and over again
i think and i think
about what can i do
to stop feeling like this
but it's the same than before
i can't control the way i feel
i wish i could by changing my mind
just like she tried to make me believe
"i just sat and thought
i don't love you like before"
how DA f.u.c.k when ya think
you increase or decrease love?
oh my God...
i want to cut
but i will not
CZ it is not worth
my heart will heal
my hopes will rise up
the pain will disappear
and i will love
once again...
like i truly did before
