To You; With Pain

I'm trying so hard to forget you
And the things you ripped away
I try to tell myself you didn't know
But it's written on your face

You knew that it would break me
But that didn't stop your exit
I can't keep badgering this topic
Though I keep trying to vex it

It's just that the knife you used
To break apart the pieces inside
Has struck every nerve of emotion
You can't imagine the tears I've cried

Sometimes when it gets too hard
I scream your name out strong
Mixed with tears and staggered breaths
I've waited for your reply so long

Oh God, you did betray me
And the trust I was afraid to dole out
The pain should have subsided
But I just can't do without

I can't stand the pain tonight
I can't stand the memories I'm facing
Trembling fingers are wasting
The beat of my heart is racing

I still cannot understand why
You had to take everything and retire
Inside me there's an awful malaise
Bent awry from the words you expired

You played the part of a savior
With good intentions turned askew
My faith in goodness was corrupted
As I lost my belief in you

I can't keep on pretending
That I'm not hurting from the yore
I don't want to have to deal with this
I don't want to feel this anymore.