The only reason

The only reason why I'm here is because I have to be. I am a mistake. The only reason why people love me is because they are forced to. You say you act loving toward me, at least thats what you tell your friends, but you and I both know that it's only to make yourself feel better.I say it is horrible here because no ones ever happy, people are always yelling. You ask me why I tell you to go away, its because you only bring pain. So I cry the night away, praying someone will say its not my fault. But you and I both know it is. I have you to remind me everyday. You know, today I thought about killing myself. But instead of that I was going to run away. As I packed I realized that this to will pass, so I took the dog out for a walk for many hours to clear my head, but stupid me I went home. I know I shouldn't of because all you did was nag me about how useless I am. So now suicide is the plan again. I just need it to look perfect. It needs to look like an accident. I hope dad has his guns locked up, oh wait, no I don't. I plan to shot myself. Stain the wall with my bloody pain, maybe you will notice me then. Who will miss me anyway? Like you said I'm just a cold hearted person whose always in your way. So please allow me to step aside and get out of your way. I know thats what you have been wanting me to do.

This is a true poem about me and my mom....But I was just venting..I don't feel this way as much as I used to..I wrote this awhile ago....Me and My mom still don't have a great relationship but it isn't that bad anymore. Please vote and comment!!