EnDlEsS eMoTiOnS

Right when I get out of bed
Endless emotions fill my head
They won’t go away
They drive me insane

You’re to blame

You’re the one
The air I breathe
The things I see
The decisions I make
Directions I take
My love, my strength, my hope
My reason to cope
You’re my everything
And I love all the endless emotions you bring

But now and then it tears me apart
It’s a start of another day not hearing your voice
You do not call
It is your choice
You decide not to

But why?

Is it because you do not care?
Am I being too judgmental; am I being unfair?
I’ll stare at the memories from our past
The way we felt why it did not last
Can we get it back?
The freely flowing love we had
It felt so fresh and easygoing
Our love showing without even trying
And now I’m dying

Inside.

For you’re the one I want to call
But it’s always someone else

My heart falls

Someone else telling me they care
Telling me they will be there
Someone else writing me poems and songs
Saying it’s me that their heart longs
Someone else laughing at the funny things I say
When times get rough they’re the ones to tell me it’s okay
Someone else realizing the little things I do
When the person I want all this to come from

Well… it’s you.

And I don’t understand why?
Why don’t you call and love me dear
Or tell me the things I need to hear
I’m at your feet, I’m yours to take
And it breaks me in half when you think I’m fake
You make me feel dumb whenever I call
Like you don’t want to talk to me at all
I thought I was numb to all of this pain
Remember when we used to play in the rain?
Because I do
I remember each and every little thing
The way you would play your guitar and sing
The way you made me feel so alive
To be myself and not to hide
You taught me how to take the chance
I remember when we used to dance
In your room to all those bands
I took your hand
And held on tight
It felt so right
And even though we’re not together
I want you to know
I never let go
Of all the feelings that we had
And it hurts so badly
To know you do not even call
Like you have no feelings left for me at all
So if you want me to stick around
Please pick my heart up off the ground
It’s supposed to be mutual not just me
It’s up to you how you want this to be
For I’m not going to stay if it remains like this
You tell me you love me
Say goodbye with a kiss
Then I don’t hear from you for weeks
Tears start streaming down my cheeks
I don’t ask for much of your time
Ten minutes a day, I wouldn’t mind

All this confusion is driving me insane

And you’re to blame

You’re the one
The air I breathe
The things I see
The decisions I make
Directions I take
My love, my strength, my hope
My reason to cope

You’re my everything
And I love all the endless emotions you bring

But it’s starting to hurt in my heart and my head…
Maybe I should just go back to bed