Just Because

(One of my firsts..somewhat similar to "His eyes")

His eyes are black now
They used to sparkle
Such beautiful green eyes they can be
But now that’s not what I mostly see
His fist comes swinging toward my face
I try to move
I’m paralyzed from shock
What just happened?
He would not
He could not
He did not mean to hurt me
He told me he loved me
That I deserved it
I knew what I did
But I didn’t
I didn’t know
He said he loved me
He loved me
He said he loved me
I love him
But I’m scared of him
What do I do?
He grabs me by the arm
Squeezes so hard
I feel weak
Leaves marks behind
Like I’m his
Like I’m his property
I don’t understand how he could love me
If I do so many things wrong
I try not to frown as I pass the halls at school
I am shouting inside
Someone please help me
I am scared
I am alone in my head
I have no clue what to do
I am such a fool to think this is all right
Just because
I love him
But I do
I love him
But every slap, every kick, every shove, every rip, and every kiss
I get deeper and deeper into this
How could they miss the signs
Mom I am drowning and you think I am just fine