How much longer is it now, 4 days or is it five
Until I can see you and I know things will be alright
I'm weaker now than I have ever been before
Cover my feelings in the day, I cant sleep at night
How much longer with no contact, one message sometimes two
Missing you, Like I never thought I would do
Sitting on my own finally letting true emotions show
When I disconnect from my feelings with thoughts of you
Days getting longer, nights last forever
As I count down the day, the minutes in my mind
Trying to carry on but I'm slipping at each hurdle
Slipping back to the old ways, further bahind
One small smile because maybe you are happy
But inside I'm dying while outside I smile
Happy and hyper, when the tears well in my eyes
How much longer can I be alone and beguiled
Simple fresh teardrops stain the darkness inside
Thoughts and paranoia swirling within my head
Longing for you so much, yet you are not here
Without you I'm a fake again, I'm lost, I'm dead
