Falling Apart

I know I should be strong,
I can't take this anymore.
I have no idea what I'm doing here,
Or what I'm living for.

Everyone hates me,
No one seems to care,
Would anyone realize or care,
If I wasn't there?

You tell me that I'm useless,
And that I'm a wh0re.
Why are you condemning me?
What do I deserve this for!?

I feel like taking this fistful of pills,
And never coming back.
Go ahead, bring it on again,
I'm going to quit fighting back.

Keep telling me I'm worthless,
I'm starting to believe it.
I'm getting ready to actually do it this time,
I can't take your sh!t.

Every night I cry myself to sleep,
It's always after one of our fights.
I don't know why you can't let me be,
Just let me follow the light.

Maybe you're right,
I know you wanna decrease my self-esteem.
If I had any to give you'd take it,
I'm sure your smile would gleam.

Why are you making me feel like this?
Don't you want me to be a normal kid?
Or would you rather sit there and play with and sell my feelings,
The winner is the highest bid.

I hate this world,
It's so unfair.
Five minutes is all it takes,
For a lifetime to be blown up into the air.

I finally found a rose,
In this concrete world.
I found it wilted and dead,
And then my blood curdled.

Please stop your ways,
You're killing me.
Walk away and stop,
Stop being the person you're trying to be.

Screw following the light,
Now I only see dark.
Off I am again,
Again I fall apart.