Not ashamed

by katie!   Jun 29, 2005


You may think I do not realize your sly conversations
As I walk past the silence, cold discrimination
You think I should cover them, my self harm
But I wont be pressured, I'm proud of them on my arms

I'm an attention seeker am I? I don't care for you
Wouldn't want your attention anyway, don't speak whats not true
To be honest, I'm sick of the lies and deceit
Tell me I'm a liar when I cry alone, tears to make me sleep

Not ashamed because the cuts are all I can do right
They are the part of me which I can admire during the night
I know what you think and I really don't care
Because I do not need you, I only need her

Want to know how I really feel, I'm crying inside all the time
Masked and fake around you, secrets caged in my mind
The only time I'm real is when I'm with her she is my life
The reason I'm breathing, she gives me respite from strife

I AM NOT ASHAMED, so don't tell me I should be
Don't talk behind my back because I can see
Wake up and listen to the real world at last
You are so happy and I am lost in my past

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  • 19 years ago

    by Jacklyn

    you amaze me all the time, again wonderful job! you hit some strong points in this poem and wrote it beautifully, i hope things are ok though!

    ~PLP~ lil slam~

  • 19 years ago

    by Hayley

    hey, i like this poem and i can feel all the emotions. i kno how it is to be proud of the only thing you can do right, i used to stare at my cuts all over my body. i used to carve crosses into my shoulder. and words that people said to me onto my stomach. i looked at them all the time. but now. i'm not so sad anymore. i havent cut myself at all for 3 months. and its good, but now i have all these scars all over my body and its not something i'm proud of anymore. i'm ashamed of them and guilty and angry that no one ever knew how desperate i was to be saved. i hope someday you'll stop cutting yourself, i'm sorry this is so long. but i wanted to let you know that someday you'll stop being proud of your scars and cuts. it was a great poem, and i hope you feel like checkin out some of my poems. keep up the great work, and never give up. hugs-hayley

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