What ever happened
to both of us feeling
together forever
the one missing
is me your still there
I'm hurting myself
still holding on
when i want to
let go of you
for another also
he was there
Ive liked him
like i never liked you
i had my chance with him
if id let go of you
i know its wrong
thats why i couldn't
get myself to do it
although i wanted to
but then i was let down
he informed me
that i wouldn't have
a chance with him
because he worries
more of others
than him and me
he said someone
would be mad at me
if i went out with you
and my reputation would
go bad because
your younger than me (by 9 months)
i guess it
doesn't matter that
he likes me
no we can forget about
all of that
so now I'm back
where i started
but worse
i don't have anything
to look forward to
so i wont let go
because i need something
someone to hold onto
but its hurting me
but i have no one else
so i sit here
you have no clue
what Ive been considering
and you still tell me
you love me with all your heart
and i lie back saying
i love you too
and i continue
living a lie because
i don't know why
what am i doing
to myself here
i need to let him go
but i need him as
much as i don't
i think I'm hurting
myself for him
so he doesn't
get hurt and ill
have just someone, someone to hold onto and hes the only one that will give me that and ill take what i can get even if i don't like it
wow..i just wrote that up real fast..it sucks...like me and the other guy just got done talking...wow I'm stressed over this..i guess everything is true in there as bad as it sounds..I'm such a dumb ass
